I'm trying to read as many classics as I possibly can this year, both for my AP Lit exam and for college preperation. I had originally decided to list all of the books I wanted to read, but I realized that I would actually try to read them all and I would totally stress myself out for no reason. So, I'm posting the top 25. I hope I get through them all. If anyone has any suggestions, go ahead and leave the title(s) and author(s) in a comment.
- Frankestein
- 1984
- Wuthering Heights
- Jane Erye
- Mrs. Dalloway
- Catcher in the Rye
- Things Fall Apart
- Catch-22
- Fahrenheit 451
- The Awakening
- The Invisible Man
- The Grapes of Wrath
- Slaughterhouse-Five
- Pride and Prejudice
- The Stranger
- Great Expectations
- Crime and Punishment
- All Quiet on the Western Front
- Waiting for Godot
- The Importance of Being Earnest
- A Street Car Named Desire
- A Room With A View
- War & Peace
- Last of the Mohicans
- The House of the Seven Gables
- The Brothers Karamazov
- The Unbearable Lightness of Being
- The Bell Jar
- Atonement
- East of Eden
- David Copperfield
- Anna Karenina
- Tom Jones
- Madame Bovary
- The Sun Also Rises
- Lolita
- Jude the Obscure
- The Castle
- As I Lay Dying
- Death In Venice
- Peter Pan
- The Red Badge of Courage
Today was my first official day as a senior. And in all honesty, it wasn't too bad. I thought I was going to hate this year. You know, with the people and the drama, and the stress from classes. But I don't think it's going to be that bad. Which is a HUGE relief.
So, I got my schedule and I have basically 5 class first semester. I'll have 5 second semester, but one of them is conditional. My classes are as follows:
AP Psychology - 1
Earth & Space Science - 2 &3
Creative Writing - 4,5,&6
AP English Literature - 7&8
Lunch - 9
Senior Seminar - 10
Free Period - 11
Not bad at all. My psych teacher is also my earth & space teacher and he said that as long as I do the reading, both classes will be easy. The class I'm going to focus on is earth & space science, because my mom can definitely help me with Psychology.
Oh, and we have this new creative writing teacher. She's... okay. I don't know how well things are going to work in the class. She's so different from my old teacher. I'm really going to miss him. He was also the AP English teacher and now we have this teacher who has never taught English Lit before teaching us. There's no way I'm going to get a 4 on this test. Which really sucks because I want the credit. Bad.
I'm debating whether or not I want to play softball next summer. There's so much politics involved and it's sorta become too much for me. I've pretty much dealt with it all 9 years I've played and playing isn't as much fun as it used to be. I don't know. I guess if I could get scholarship money, the fun isn't important. Right?
I'm also going to talk to the counselor and find out if I can take second semester U.S. History again. That should bring my g.p.a up. My report card for the last quarter of my junior year really sucked.
I guess that's all for now. I'll post again when something comes up.
<3
In a world full of people
only some want to fly,
isn't that crazy?
In my last entry I was remembering and moving on from an old me and this entry is going to talk about the new me.
This past week has been AMAZING! Well, except for my last two days of school on Monday and Tuesday.
So, I won an internship on a short-movie set for tomorrow and saturday and I've been uber excited about it. This is really a once in a life-time opportunity and I'm blessed to have gotten the chance to do it. So, on Tuesday night there was the big production meeting where all of the interns, the director, the producers, the writer, and the crew got to meet each other. It was also the day we found out what our departments were and I was soo incredibly happy to find that I was put in the production department, obviously the best part of filmmaking. And because my mom had to work late that night, I got to hang a little longer with the people in the department and get to know them. It also meant I was given the opportunity to come in the next day (Wednesday) and watch the team in action. I was hyped!
I came in on Wednesday and the first thing they had me do was make coffee... and I thanked my mother in my head for teaching me how to make it. Then I got to sit around for a couple of hours and have them teach me the basics of their job as they were doing it. I got to see the computer programs, they taught me how to take calls from clients, and I learned about all the different jobs they have to do when making a movie. The production staff does a hell of a lot. The director gets way too much credit. Then, I got to go out with Bob (Production Mananger) and we got these awesome sandwiches from this place called Baloduchi's. Oh my god. Serious mouth-orgasm. Then I got to help make some of the calls and I made a big boo-boo and everyone laughed at me. I had to confirm that one of the crew members was going to be on set for both days and when I called, she had this weird-ass bohemian music with this russian guy talking over it as her ring-back tone. I started busting up and she picked the phone up as I was laughing. Everyone in the room starts laughing at me and I can't stop laughing and the woman on the other line is like "Uh... who is this?" It was just completely awkward. But I got it together and was able to complete the call. I actually impressed them with my call-taking skills. And since I had such a fun day, they said I could come back tomorrow (today!).
Today was amazing too. I did a lot more work than yesterday though because today was crunch time and they had to finalize everything. Not to mention that the executive director was a complete and total idiot and complicated things. But anyways, I got to talk to the director today for a bit (he's a really cool guy) and I chilled with the writer because we're both the same age and basically come from like the same background. She's a really cool girl. Well, I got to be all interny today again and I dropped off sandwhiches, set up the rehearsal room, made calls to all the interns confirming their attendence, the location, etc. Today was pretty drop-kick awesome.
And then tomorrow, I have to get up at like 4:30 to be at the Authentic Films office at 6:00 a.m. so I can help load stuff and continue making calls (who woulda thunk people were actually up that early in the morning. haha)
After these past couple days and the days to come, I've actually got some serious work experience in (16 hours!) and I think I've found something I could really do for the rest of my life. Not to mention this whole thing might have actually convince my mother that I should go to Full Sail and that I could actually make a living as a roadie (YES!)
<3 Abbey
Laughter and smiles
does nothing for the heart
if you're not really enjoying the moment
I don't mean that in a bad way, either. It's not like this is a I'm so lost and confused kind of thing. I'm just in that awkward stage where I'm not a kid anymore, but I still feel like I am. And for the first time, I've actually opened my heart up to more than one or two people. I've been able to put trust in my personal relationships. This is a totally new feeling.
I remember at the beginning of this year how hard things were for me. I was at a new school, a new work load, had to make new friends... It was all so overwhelming. I got by, yeah. And I wasn't nearly as stressed out as I was at my old school. But I still felt lonely. I wanted to find people who I could give my soul to, but didn't live so far away from me. I needed someone next door who I could finally call my bf.
And they didn't come right away. It took me about half a year to get into the swing of things. Of course my grades were outstanding. Probably the best in my high school career. And by winter break, I had managed to find some social stability at school. I had made a couple aquiantances and had people to talk to inbetween classes. I had gotten my play that I had been working so hard on into the school's new play festival and I was absolutely extatic.
This is probably another changing point. Where I wanted to have a friend so bad that I kind of gave up a few other things in the process. My grades did go down and I picked up so bad study and school attendence habits. Most of which I do regret. I also had this Look Up To Cleveland program that I was a part of and I had to find my way there too. I think though, having some of the people I've known since grade school in that program with me, definitely made it easier.
I'd say around March/April was when things really started getting kind of stressful and out of hand, but they were still so exciting. My play was going through the final rehearsal process at the beginning of April and by the end of that same month, it had gone through five shows. I was so proud. There was a lot of drama involved with that too, but it didn't really dent me too much. It took me a couple days to get over the fact that I wasn't going to hanging out with the same people I had been for the past two months and that I was going to have to go back to my regular school routine, but I did eventually re-adjust. Most of the re-adjusting was related to my school work though. I'm still not sure if I've completely recovered.
Then in the Look Up To Cleveland program, we had our big final group project and I was working with about 16 other people almost every saturday for 5 hours. Not to mention going to pitching practice, awards ceremonies, hanging with my friends, and trying to stay on top of my school work. This is probably when it hit me that I had seriously been neglecting my academics. That I wasn't just skating by anymore.
This brings me to yesterday. It was my final day in Look Up To Cleveland and the big awards ceremony. I saw, unlike before, how close I had become with some of the people in the program, it the ceremony was kind of like a way for me to say, I'm done with this year and I'm ready to move on. I think it was honestly a great turning point for me. I saw how far I'd come, with the good and the bad. I saw that I had really opened myself up, allowed myself to make mistakes, but still worked hard.
Of course I have some regrets about this school year. But at no time was there no happiness in my life. I always had something to hold on to. To love. Whether it be my hardwork, my luck, or my friends. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I do know who I am and what I want. I'm a changing person who wants to live life beautifully. Wants to feel what real living is.
Maybe it's time I tried to help others around me understand that too.
<3 Abbey
I'll always remember the soft sound of her voice,
the warm air on my face,
the loud laughter and quiet tears of joy.
Nothing can hold me back anymore.
On Monday, my lead actress (Emily) came up to me during the last period of the day and said that she's not sure if she can make it on Saturday for the cast party. I was totally thrown for a loop. She was like the one person who said that she was really excited for it and could do any date or time, no problem. I asked her about why she might not be able to come and she said that she talked to her parents about it and they got into a fight. Supposedly, her mother said that she'd "changed a lot during the play" and that "she was acting like a slut now." I couldn't believe what I was hearing. First off, Emily hasn't changed one bit. Second, why would any mother think that it's okay to call her daughter a slut. Anyways, I shook my head and understood and told her to text me later tonight with whether or not she can come. The night came and went, and the next day I wasn't at school so I didn't get to talk to her about it again. She didn't send any text so I assumed that she talked to our director, Alyssa, about it. I came into school yesterday and Alyssa and I exchanged the gifts that we got for all of them so she can gift wrap them. Then I told her about asking Emily if she could come and she told me that my supporting male character, Dameer, had been asking about me during math class. I was all confused and so was she, so we decided to talk more about it later in math class, which Dameer is in as well. Well, Dameer completely avoided me, so Alyssa and I just talked about the gifts and dinner. After school, I texted Dameer and asked him what he wanted. Keep in mind, I texted him at like 3:30 in the afternoon. I got nothing until a little after 10 when I get a call from him. Now I'm getting ready to go to bed. He sounds all perky and I'm like "hi." He asked me if I was sleeping and I said that I was getting ready for bed, so he said he'd just talk to me the next day. Well, here's the next day and we were both in drama, but he avoided me again. So I texted him about it and he said that he just wanted to tell me that Emily's parents didn't approve of them going out. And I know the reason why. Emily is white and Dameer, well he's black. Catch my drift? So I guess there's a lot of anger between the two now and they're like not talking.
This is not what I had planned
so give me another chance
and I'll fix it again
P.S. Next entry, I PROMISE I'll write more about me. =]
I'm coming back down to Earth. The last time I posted (like a week ago) I was still working on New Play and skipping school and having the time of my life. I've come back to the real world... and it's not nearly as fun.
I'm dropping U.S. history and I'm going to double major next year in Drama and Creative Writing. I'm excited for that. I've already started on my next play (which I think is going to be freaking awesome). I'm also trying to win this LUTC award, trying to get an internship at the mayor's office, and get used to the idea that I'm going to be first string pitcher. Ugh. That's about the extent of my stress right now. haha Oh, and turning in all the work I missed when I was out for two weeks. Now, for some interesting gossip...
In my play, my lead female and one of my supporting males had this little... flirty... thing going since the beginning of tech week. Maybe even a little before that. Probably. But on Wednesday night, our final night performance, he kissed her like 15 minutes before the show went on. OMG was my reaction. Now I had been totally trying to push them together because I thought that they'd be soo cute and good for each other. Boy, what the hell kinda mess did I start? So maybe 10 minutes before my play went on, one of the poets who was performing came up to me and was like, "Do you know about his other trist?" And shook my head and pushed it out of my mind. I didn't really have time to care about anything but my play to be honest. So my play went on and it was seriously the best performance of the festival and the best performance of anything I've ever written. I cried and laughed and hugged my director. Then I get up and sneak out to give my hugs and "good jobs" to the actors, but when I get out of the theatre, I see one of my sophomore friends running by, tears streaming down her face. I tried to grab her, but she was moving so fast I couldn't get a good grip. So I'm looking around and there's my guy actor (the one who kissed my lead) standing in the doorway of the hallway leading to the dressing rooms and he's looking down. I'm confused and freaked out, so I go after my sophomore friend and find her in the bathroom. She tells me that she's mad at my actor because he kissed my actress, but he also kissed her. (Try and stay with me here, I know it's a lot to take in.) So he's been playing both girls. Well, not only them, but me as well because I was promoting him as this great guy. I don't even know how to explain this rage in me, but I've only felt it once before and the last time I did, I was really hurt. To keep this a short story, I had to let my actress know what he did and then I talked to the guy for an hour on the phone, trying to figure out (obviously in a demeaning and harsh way) why the hell he would do something like that. I got somewhere, but not where I wanted. So now, we have a cast party on Saturday downtown and we're all going to have to figure out some way to make things less... awkward.
Lifes full of gossip and drama
And it continues on after high school
God, I used to post in this thing like at least twice a month. I'm so getting lazy. I suppose it's because I've been completely and utterly busy, but still... it's good to vent. So, I shall now VENT! Although, I don't really have much to say that's bad.
First, I'm dropping my U.S. history class. It's WAY too boring and I can take a U.S. history class at a community college and get High School and college credit for it and at least the class will be interesting. Besides that, I got my report card. My grades are as follows:
Creative Writing: A
11 AP English: A
Government: A
Pre-Calculus: C
Spanish IV: B
Business Technology: A
One of my classmates said something about getting theatre elite credit, but I don't really care too much about that. I don't really need credits. I've got so many right now that I could actually graduate.
On top of that, I've had some exciting happenings concerning my writing. I've known about a few of these things for a month now, but because I haven't posted, I haven't been able to share them! Now I'm going to. I'm a state finalist in a competition called "Letters About Literature" in which you have to write a letter to your favorite author about how one of their books changed your life and I chose Chuck Palahniuk's book, Invisible Monsters! Because to be completely honest, it did change my life. As far as that goes, I get to go down to Columbus on May 10th (but we're leaving on May 9th and I don't have to go to school!) and there's going to be a little awards ceremony there. I also won 3rd place in Tri-C's poetry competition and won $50. I love mulah! I also found out, I think on Saturday, that I won a meet & greet at the Panic concert on May 16th! <3!!! I'm soooo excited. I totally can't wait for it. I was positive I wasn't going to win it.
As for my play at my school... it has been an incredibly amazing experience. I'm so glad that my play was chosen and I got to experience this. The people, especially my director and fellow playwrights, were amazing. I've put so much time into this, but it's all been worth it. I'm really sad that Thursday is the last performance. I can't believe that it's over already...
Exciting News: I might have an internship at the Mayor's office. OMG! That would be so exciting. I absolutely love politics (if you couldn't tell) and to be able to watch it happening and to be an "insider"... this is way beyond anything I've done before.
Some more exciting news: HOT GUYS ALERT! I don't think I've seen this many hot guys around me... ever, actually. One is in my play (and he's totally mature and nice, but he's smile leads me to believe that he can't be trusted. haha) and the other guy is in this leadership thing that I'm doing. We've been around each other since the beginning of December, but we haven't really talked to each other. On wednesday afternoon, we were both speakers at the leadership board thing (we brought down the house, by the way) and we got to talking. And he's really as amazing as I thought he was. But I'm not going to say anything to him about him being amazing to me and all. Firstly, I think that might creep him out and I don't want him thinking I'm a creeper. Secondly, I'm not sure if he has any interest in me.
Other news that's less exciting: I'm going to be playing high school softball for a school in my district. This means that I'll be getting some pitching practice in before my travel team season. I also really want to go and see a movie this weekend, but I'm not sure which movie. Any suggestions?
That's all for now. I promise, next time, I'll remember more about my uneventful life.
<3 Abbey
The seasons change
but who my heart belongs to stays the same
P.S. Obama made a comment today that reminded me of Hitler. The last time I was this scared about a presidential candidate was when George W. Bush ran for president. And look what happened there. Except, Obama scares me a little more.
I'm going to the concert on May 16th and I've got VIP/early admission tickets. I could care less about the fan club. I just don't want my butt waiting out in the global warming heat of Ohio in early summer with a bunch of people who sweat worse than a football player. That's all.
Besides that awesome news, I'm back to working on my play. I've got ONE more draft to do and then, by the words of Dr. Miller, I won't have to do anymore drafts. However, I know that I'll have smaller changes here and there as we go along. I can't keep changing the script though. I'll have three actors who are trying to learn their lines so I'll have to be a bit more restrained when it comes to that stuff. As for my directors... I know one personally and she's totally amazing and nice. I can't wait to work with her. As for the other director... her play didn't get in so she's being a bitch. Too bad. She's a really creative person.
I forgot to mention that I got a new phone on Sunday. It's a "Chocolate" and it's my tool for showing my mother that I'm a responsible adult. I thought that was a given since my grades have improved by like a mile and I'm way more on top of things than other kids my age, but whatever satisifies her. I just can't wait to use the AWESOME camera at the panic concert! I'm SOOO excited for that. It's been like 2 years since I've seen them because they were busy doing an arena tour and then being cavedwellers.
That's about it for right now. I'm sure I'll have more to say the next time I update.
Because it's 14 in the morning
and your eyes are like the sun,
burning holes through the back of my head
Things aren't looking good. She might have to go into assisted living. I think that's something like a nursing home, but I don't want that for her. The aggrivating part is that we may not have a choice. My mom doesn't have the time, money, or energy to take care of her all by herself, my aunt is still trying to raise her 28 year old daughter and her 8 kids, and my two uncles could care less about anyone but themselves. I have this feeling in my gut, like I'm on a roller coaster, except my gut isn't dropping, it's pushing out. It's the worst feeling in the world and I have no control over it. What's even worse is that I don't have any say or control over what happens to my grandmother, one of my most trusted family members.
The last time I felt this way was when my grandfather was really sick. I want this feeling to go away.
They ask us if we make time to talk to god.
We tell them no; why should we?
When we do, god never talks back.
It sits there like a photograph,
a still life painted
in the corners of my mind.
Leaning closer, I brush aside the cobwebs
and taste the colours on my fingertips;
remember the smell
of fresh-mown grass on a summer’s evening.
Those were the nights when I would
watch the watercolour sunset
fast-forward into grey mist.
Static.
Adjust my mind, clear the picture –
I step outside.
The night is thick and warm, my skin is pale
in the twilight shadows of an indigo pool.
I break the seal on perfection
making the stars shiver,
sliding beneath the water without a sound.
And the place I remember most,
fragmented by half-formed thoughts,
slips from my hands like a dream
and ripples away
in the non-existent breeze of time
Happiness is just a state of mind
Being happy is the real thing.
P.S. My play made it into the playwriting festival. <3
Anyways, there's semi- a lot going on right now. I think there's definitely more than I'm reacting to. Because right now, I'm so chill it's like someone overdosed me with benedryl. I'm never this relaxed... or calm.
Last weekend was totally amazing. I had so much fun. On friday I went to one of my bf's going away party because she's (as of 17 hours ago) staying in New York City for a term at some cultural/urbanization awareness school. So, it's like school but cooler. Anyways, my other bf that I haven't seen in a long time (we were like the three amigos in middle school) was there and we totally had a good time. I left early because I was tired like an old lady though. Then on Saturday, this leadership program I'm doing had an oppertunity to work at the Food Bank with these Brazilian exchange students. It was sooo freaking hilariously fun. Well, besides the fact that I spent 4 hours in a giant cooler, it was the most fun I've had volunteering ever. I love foreigners. Then on Sunday I spent the evening driving around Cleveland with another friend (I have more than I thought) who came back from college for her 6 week break. We went to some pretty shady areas. One part was by the Cuyahoga river (yeah, the one famous for catching on fire) and we stopped by the site where a legendary serial killer from the 1940's had dumped one of the bodies he cut up into a million pieces. I ended up crying and laughing because I was so scared. It was hilarious. We had tons of fun.
I was supposed to have a Blades of Glory party on Monday, but I (supposedly) had to go down to Canton to visit my grandmother. Nothing against my grandmother, because I love her to death, but we didn't even end up going. Which really bummed me out. But only a little.
I was told on Tuesday when I got back to school that my entry for my school's New Play Festival had a good shot of getting in. The drama teacher supposedly told his drama majors that mine was looking to be a definite. But I turned in a draft of it today that was actually due on Tuesday, so my odds of getting in probably aren't as high as they were before. Oh well. I'm still totally stoked.
Yesterday I had pitching practice (which my pitching coach didn't come to because she had a doctor's appointment (she's having a baby!)), but I basically just spent the hour throwing fast balls at my catcher. Which was okay, but I prefer instruction. Especially if my mother is paying $25 an hour for it. After pitching, my mom and I went and dropped off some money that was due for my travel team and my coach told me that I'm first string catcher and second string pitcher which really makes me happy. All of this extra training and time has paid off. Finally.
I'm getting skinnier too. But it's not just because. I'm actually trying to eat better. So, I'm glad it's working. Soon, I'll look like Jillian, the trainer from Biggest Loser. haha Yeah right!
Feelin good
Never felt so good
P.S. I'm glad you're back Nicole. Are you supper stoked for the HCT with Panic! and the Hushies? Cuz I am.
I guess I should start this entry with my new year's resolutions, seeing that those are probably the most important things in my life right now. This year, I decided to go about this resolution thing a little differently. Instead of focusing on negative things in my life, I tried to think about the positives. My thinking is that if I can improve the positives, they might wipe out the negatives. So, my new year's resolutions are to be a healthier person. When I say this I don't mean lose weight or look prettier. I mean I want to eat better, exercise more, without worrying about the weight or beauty part. That goes right into my second resolution: better body image. I have struggled with my weight and image of my own beauty all of my life. I'm tired of it. This year, I'm going to focus on loving me and my body the way it is and stop thinking about whether or not it matches up to society's standards.
With that out of the way, a lot has happened in the last month. And I mean a lot. Just today I found out that my play that I've spent all that time slaving over made it into the semi-finals. I have three more weeks of revision and then it goes back into judging, and I'll find out if my play is going to be produced around the 30th. This is totally exciting and I really needed to have this kind of good news. It's given me the energy to push forward and finish this semester on a good start.
Next, I got a 90% on my oral presentation in spanish and got back another part of the project where I got 100%. I had an 87.5% before winter break, so my grade hopefully went up. For math, I have a few portfolio problems completed and hope to get a high B on it. If I do, that means I should average a B in the class because my grade before winter break was 79.5%. I also got a 90% on my semester math project, the only A in my pre-calculus class. In AP, I just turned in an essay that was due about a week before winter break, but at least I got it in. I still have to update my journal entries for creative writing (which I will get around to) and I have to finish some incomplete assignments for English. I plan on doing most of those tonight, along with at least two more spanish assignments. I could probably write my movie review right now too...
Besides all of this school related mumbo-jumbo, I've been doing really well with my pitching. I'm getting good and my new pitching coach is amazing. I'm actually going to see her this wednesday and when I'm there I will talk about some pain that I've been having so I stop it and stop any potential pitching errors before they start. And yesterday I had practice with my whole team, where I caught for the other pitchers. I looked pretty good. I have to keep my head game under control. Once I master it (which I think I'm doing right now), I will be the best player on the team.
My shows are a bit iffy on t.v. for me right now. Heroes is still a question mark for returning because the writer's strike hasn't ended. My Life Is Wild, Supernatural, One Tree Hill, Cold Case, Ghost Whisperer, and my new show American Gladiators are all still running though, which is nice. I just hope the entertainment companies can get off of their high-horses and come to an agreement with the writers soon. I miss my new episodes.
That's it for right now, as my hand is cramping and I think the libarian is getting peeved that I've been sitting here for so long.
As long as I keep trying
loss won't leave such a deep scar
So, since the last time I posted... what's happened. Well, Heroes ended and will start up again (hopefully) next year, Beauty and the Geek ended, and a couple of my other shows have ended, but apparently they aren't important enough for me to remember.
I've sent off like 5 writing contest submissions since the last time I posted, by the way. Right now I'm working on a huge spanish project that had written work for, that was basically due today, but I didn't get it all done, so I'm doing it now. I also have to practice my oral presentation for tomorrow's class. It is a job interview. I hope I'll do okay. I'm going to spend the rest of my night on it and hopefully that will be enough. If it isn't, I'll just fake sick tomorrow. That should give me enough time to practice. If I fake sick, it will also give me enough time to go over my Scholastic submission AND my new play entry.
By the way... I FINISHED MY PLAY! This is so exciting. I'm finally done writing all of the scenes after we got our first draft back and I even wrote a new ending. Now I just have to use my time to do some small editing things. I hope the judges like it. I'm afraid that mine won't get in. That means that this will be the first year my play doesn't get it to a play festival. If I dont get in, I think I just might cry. Seriously.
Anyways, I've also got a math project that I have to present tomorrow. Since one of my partners chickened out and doesn't want to be the lead role in our skit anymore, I have to do it. Which means that I also have to re-type the script on top of having to write my spanish project. Oh, what joy.
Did I mention that today marks the first day of the last week of school before winter break! I'm soo excited to be able to chill for two weeks. This is totally awesome.
I don't break hearts
I just... don't
So, I haven't really updated for about a week. Haven't had the time or been allowed to. I've been grounded for a week (and have another week to go!) because my mom and I got into an arguement over the t.v. I'm not going to drag it out because there's no point. She overreacted and if she wants to ground me, fine. But her and her control freakiness are really wearing down our relationship... again. I'm at a point where I'm just going to let her destroy the relationship. I don't care about keeping it up anymore. In a year and a half I'm going to be in college. Hopefully far away from her.
I'm at my grandmother's right now. I've been here since Wednesday night. Today, I helped her set up her christmas stuff around the house. It made me think I could be an interior designer. Not. And last night we went and say August Rush. Let me tell you, it was amazing. I recommend it to everyone.
I've written several essays and papers for contests during the break. I'm excited about writng again, which is a really good thing. When Nicole gets back from California (I'm jealous!), I'm going to ask her about a new play idea I have and see if she likes it. I hope she does.
I'm also really busy with school. I've got this math project that is going to be due in like 2 weeks and I've got some missing spanish assignments (which have really lowered my grade) that I need to get in. I also have to do some ALEKS work.
Oh, I almost forgot. I got into this leadership program called Look Up To Cleveland. My retreat for it is going to be on December 2 and December 3rd. Not to mention I'm going to get to miss a whole bunch of school. That part totally rocks.
Finished my actual first draft (the draft that is going to the playwrights) for New Play. Got the 7th draft that I've done on my own yesterday and was told that I had until today to get it completed and turned it. Let's just say I didn't get all of it done. Which really irks me because I've spent so much time and put so much effort into the thing and I didn't even get to send the playwrights a decent draft.
I had this intership oppertunity that would allow for an $800 stipend, but because that same teacher forgot to give me back their recommendation, I CAN'T DO IT! Seriously, this teacher is really starting to get on my nerves. Seriously.
Softball... I'm being screwed over for pitching. I've called my coach like 5 times asking for this new pitching coach's number and he hasn't returned any of my calls. Not only is it annoying, but it's really rude.
What's up with people these days???
Besides all of that, I got a fastweb account and have found like 100 scholarship oppertunities for paying for college. I'm going to take every single one of them. I've got about 5 lined up right now, so I'll start with those. Actually, one of them, called Letters for Literature, lets you write a letter to an author/book that has impacted your life in some way. I'm writing about the book "Invisible Monsters." Amazing and life changing.
people screw you over
get over it
AP English: A
Government: A
U.S. History: A
Creative Writing: A
Business Technology: A
Pre-Calculus: C
Spanish: C
Okay, let me just say two things. One, pre calculus is really hard. Two, my spanish teacher is a totally b**ch. I know I shouldn't use that kind of language, but it's the truth. Having a C in the class doesn't even make sense. She seriously doesn't like me, and I was fine with that, but now she's messed with my grade and she's now crossed a line she's really going to wish she hadn't. This means war.
Anyways, the rest of my week has been pretty good. I remember what that show that I just started watching and really liked was called. Moonlight. It's a vampire thing and I'm not usually into that at all, but it's a good show and the soundtrack for the episodes is REALLY good.
I finally finished writing my big play and I think it turned out well. I've got it at 36 pages!! It's like a miracel. It was 40, but I managed to cut a few things here and there and got it down. So, it should be short enough now for New Play.
I was thinking about starting a new play. I think Nicole might like it. It's going to be about this 3 people who are all going through these self-identity crisis' and they go to support groups (which they don't even belong in) to talk out their problems (that don't exist). Sound a little bit on the crazy side? Crazy like Invisible Monsters? I think so, but that's what I'm going for. I'm actually looking up diseases and such right now that you can pass as looking normal, but still have them. This should definitely be an interesting piece.
Write For Tomorrow
Live For Today
Powerspace sent out a hilarious message to all of their phone subscribers. Something about some weird disease. I listened to it during class while I was on the computer and I nearly got my phone taken away because I started laughing really loudly. The teacher came over and asked me why I was laughing, saw the phone, asked me what I was doing with my phone, said she was going to take away, my friend covered for me, and then I got to keep my phone. The event still didn't take away from the fact that the voicemail was hilarious.
School was okay today. We had that screenwriting residency thing again. We looked at what was missing and what was good about other people's screenplays. I was really exciting about having mine reviewed but when I went to go and print it off, I saw that it wasn't there, but my letter for the screenplay contest was. I was doing a paper last night for English and saved it over my actual revised screenplay. I didn't get any sleep (maybe two hours at the most) last night, so I don't know if I backed the edited version up on my home computer. If I didn't, I'm screwed. If I did, thank god. We'll see when I get home.
I'm going to a new hair stylist. I'm excited. Mostly because I love getting my hair done, but also because it needs to get done. I love my long, wavy/curly hair, but I don't like how it's a huge fro all the time. It's really not a good look for me. So, I'm probably going to get it down next weekend. I'll post some pics from my cell phone because I dropped my camera and now it's not working. Yeah, I dropped a $300 camera.
As for softball yesterday... not too bad. I did okay, but when I walk out on the field for practice in the spring, I need to be the best player out there. And I don't just mean good. I have to have the best batting average, I have to be the best infielder and outfielder, I need to be the best catcher, and their fastest pitcher. Why? Because I'm the utility player and as of right now, I don't have an official position. I'm good enough to play any of those positions, but I still don't have one yet. It bites, but it gives me the motivation I need to be even better than I am now.
Something I've been thinking a lot about lately: deleting my myspace. I love it and it's cool, but I don't really use it all that much. I know it's the only way I can keep in touch with some of my friends, but I hate the hassle of having to check it for a few people. I have their email addresses. I might as well get rid of the thing.
green extensions and finger nails painted red
oh, how she's so scene
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